Eye'sDark

panda eye... last night, i heard that my friend broke up becoz he had an ex-gf... well, some ppl might think she is stupid, some even think she is trying to find an excuse to dump my friend... erm,, i see him living his life well... doesnt seem sad... isit becoz he hide his tears or juz he dun care bout his last relationship... its correct that,, being happy is better den being sad,, but isit so easy to let go a relationship??? going through ppl blogs,, i found dat,, they usually encourage themselve to be strong.... i personally think that loving someone cannot be mixed wit reality... means ,,, as example,,, in my friend case,, he dont show any sadness after break up.... i mean,,, shud he go and drink?? or be cheerful?? the matter is not shud or shud not,,, its whether how deep is his feelings.... i sometimes think dat,, i shudnt cheer other ppl up when they break,, well atleast they wont be happy awhile den sad again,,, i rather they be sad for a period of time,, den come out as themself.... i also think,,, if sad,, its good to cry.... god make us cry-able,,, den juz cry la... wats wrong??? listen to the saddest songs and sing ur heart and cry as hard as you could.... living life in reality and in own dreamland both come to the end soon... as long as being a better ownself, whats wrong living in dreamland.... afterall,, life is unpredictable...being realistics doesnt always gain...
my dear de bro is going to australia next year.... he seem to be very care dear these few days.... isit becoz he finally realise next year is juz around corner?? i dunno... i juz think that he is like me... but juz luckier.... i m glad dat i m better den those unfortunate ones.... atleast i hav shelter and food... but i realli think that,, dear shud get more education since she is so good in studies... it doesnt matter son nor daughter... its the same....

Finding Job

Erm, i knew that studies are less important... today i went for interview, all they ask for is experience and looks... the first thing asked,,, how long i had work... ofcoz,, i work several years as part time but actually i forgot everything when i study... so everytime i work again in my holiday,,, my memory is lik refreshed... and so,, today when i was asked bout lens products, i am completed down to zero... i cant do my eyetest and i cant cut my lens.... cause frankly,, i only roughly remember... besides dat,, after the cruel exam,,, my look had become more down and tired... the guy interviewing me said i dont hav enuff eye contacts and my smile wasnt natural... ofcoz la,, i haven even bath and i was wearing my pm rm2 pants.... such a shame... i knew the outcome alredi... actually i realli wan to learn more about MOG, focus point and a-look... those are the three most successful optical shops in malaysia in case of overall performance... i realli nid to go in and work from one of them... pls giv me a better job... ^_^V

Longest Hour

in this minute, i found myself cry-able... reminded my late pet, Mimi... reminded dat, every year, i lost friends.... reminded dat the room i m living, is so cold... even as i cry so hard, i cant rewind and playback the moments before... even as i cry so hard, i cant change the fact that i hurt someone before... even as i cry so hard, i cant become the person i dreamt before...
you are my tears,
symbolizes my white and black,
behind the bubbly cloud,
of the blue sky,
you are my eyes,
let me see this world,
is just infront of me,
you are one part of me....
my heart is so brittle... so little... and maybe infront of everyone,, i smile... but behind,,, i m a human....

Shoes

Why shoes??Why female so interested with shoes??Why??Can they ever throw away a JimmyChoo??? I mean CAN they worth so much to keep??? Buying is one thing,, and wearing is another...
People say, "A lady's shoes is de f'mine best friend" ....

KO-Numbers

erm... similar to ko1 de show, chung ji yi ban, ssm had a class like dat.... smoking, fighting, basketball.... legends of ssm... haihz... missing dat kinda of days... if now asked,,, regret of doing dat?? sure say no.... coz dat was the most memorable days.... seeing them fighting was kinda entertaining.... others school came to our school to fight.... after dat,,, when all kicked out of school,,, some go cp,,, some go sg long,,, some even work... their trace were gone... siannezzz.... no more entertainment....

how to kiss

Motivation

some ppl say dat when we put something in mind, we can reach the impossible... we try to understand dat the progress is more important than outcome... and how much effort we put in too... the more hardworking we are,, we will be more lucky... true, as it also means every hardwork doesnt always pay off... we juz get luckier... and most importantly how it is changed thru times... factors affecting motivation??? what makes you wake up everyday?? what inspire you to take the steps you are taking now??? how to count the uncountable effort?? how to know the outcome of something before it happen??

Factor 1(Person or thing that make you wake)
i think that a person motivation is dependant on a person or thing... they change your mind.... they make you wake up everyday.... receiving the very first light patch from a distant object, innovate the very first cone of retina, travel thru the first visual pathway and triggering our midbrain... in every heart there is something dat push us... have you find it yet??

Factor 2(Inspiration)
try counting the days you lived,,, and try see what we came by all these years... ordinary person with ordinary life... isit enough to inspire you... i had seen countless 40 to 50 years of age of people travelled the globe... knowing that one day they will be bored of their life and want to go on to the next life as soon as possible... they really hav no regret in life???

Cause 1(Effort is uncountable)
we cant really COUNT how much effort we do unless there's a relative to compare... judging effort is just a waste of time... we dont count them,, we should feel blessed for while still being able to do all the stuff we are doing...

Cause 2(Hopes)
wat we hope for is vitally important... hope for the best before the worst come... if we dont try,, how do we know how much we can achieve...

Person who is bored of life is wasting time to hope for the best....

Bubbly - Colbie Caillat

V1: I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

C: It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

V2: The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under covers stayin safe (*) and warm
you give me feelins that I adore

C: It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

B: What am I gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmm

C: It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

V3: I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

C: It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever you go, I'll always know
Cause you make me smile here, just for a while

(*) Another version with DRY instead of SAFE
[Bubbly Lyrics on
http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]


Overheard this song on ppl's blog... sounded nice...

Trashed

Many days came by and i juz realised i had been called "jong sik heng yao".... haihz.... ya realli... i jong sik heng yao.... i love my gf more den all.... isit that unreasonable??? i still hang out wit my friends... yum cha and all.... stuck wit exam sumore.... i dunno la... stp friendship.... i go out wit them so many times before.... been thru some good years.... and suddenly i m define by some back stab'er....
releasing my feeling now... haihz..... pressure.... exam in few days.... i felt the heat when i see the past years.... i dunno whether i can make it... i juz hope dat my prayers stopby my mind and guide me to the following graduation dinner... actually i felt sad dat bibi failed her test in practical... she cant make it in the next convo... nid to resit and wait for another year... not to say wait cause its not going to pause everything... she's not going to study anymore... so,, its not a waste of time....
well,, i also decided i dont wan to study after this course... i dun wan to be so educated.... but also hope i can hav a good future... seeing all my friends with dreams,,, i sincerely hoped dat they succeed in life, get what they most dreamt, and dont forget me after dat... haha...
recently i heard a song,, its call "xing bu liao qing" by "yang chung wei" of the "xing guang contest" from taiwan.... very nice.... when i miss bibi,, den i will turn on tis song,,, tears drop by bits and den everything felt better.... i finally know roughly wat is the extent of distance relationship....
life but a walking shadow.... wat does tis means? i think it as a kind of person who follow the steps of others.... am i right? dunno la.... juz saw tis from poems......

这就是爱 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦

Its been awhile i had my own masterpiece.... since 2005 i had the 1st best creation den to what i think the second best is in 2006.... and now i present 2007,,, best baby_production goes to............ *drum*.................... ta daaaa.......... :) and we have number 1...... enjoy....... hehe.......

HomeMadeSong...(TotallyRealisticVoice)

My voice is pure... I sang for the worst... my singing sucks... but for the sack of keeping my blog alive,, i nid to put something.... hope got ppl giv face and dont giv bad comment.... amen and namo-omi-tauhu.....