WorkAgain

today,, i start my work again at the same place, same company for the last 5 years...my friends always ask me when did i start working?? i started my 1st holiday work when i was standard 5 in my uncle's office...den standard 6 and form 1,, i work in the stock department(also my uncle company).... form 2 was promoted to work in shop(ALSO my uncle company)... dat is where i m working now.... dats wut i said,, worked 5 years in the same place....
erm,, i learned many stuff throughout these years,,, but forgot everything after holiday ended.... so everytime my holiday work start again, my aunt always ask someone to refresh my memory... hehe...
bout today,, i was given a few tasks alredi.... 1st day of work, no gaji but aunt belanja makan.....^^ and second thing is,, my former supervisor came back to work wit us,,, yahuuu,,, like him,,, he is my ham sap teacher... he tought me so many ham sap and funny things..... sometimes i felt he too funny,, laugh until i cry.....
after work, drive back home, bath, eat supper, den read ben zhu's blog from the begining.... thou i skipped the chinese part but i also think i get to know bout ben zhu past more.... hehe
k la... very tired~ going to sun rise if still havent sleep....

*ps*miss ben zhu alot....

Words of art

The night was so early, so soft and so empty.... Silent street with posts... This moment was like a dash of drawings in my head when i looked through my doorsteps... Unforgettable and happy moments we'd been through... I miss you, miss you whenever you not around... No matter how many times i dream bout you, will never do...I'll/'d still miss you...
How do i struggle the days without you around me...? Difficult yet i would bare... Unlikely but yet i would bare...
Worries in mind never stop like running water of rivers on top of the world..... Clouds blown by the wind.... How many sunset and sunrise will it takes???
My valentine, my turtledove, my honey brunch, my sweetheart, my summer, you don't have to think days ahead... our future is not ours to see... what lies in front will be what will be....

Er Ren Xiao Fei Ben Zhu

我可以不眠到天光只为听你的呼吸
只为看你熟睡的笑脸
只为远远的看着你在作着美梦
我可以用我的一生换你的温柔
我可以永远陪伴着你
每时每刻陪伴在你身边,这是我所愿
我不想闭上眼睛
我不想睡着
因为宝贝我想念你
我不想错过任何事情
因为当我梦着你时
好梦却从未成真
宝贝我依然思念着你
我离你是如此的近,都能感觉到你的心跳
我想知道你的梦想是什么
我是否是你寻找的人
那么我会吻向你的眼并感谢上帝让我们在一起
我只想与你在一起
此时此刻永远延续下去
我不想错过你温馨的微笑
我不想错过你甜美的吻
我只想与你在一起
就这样与你一直在一起
只想紧紧拥着你
感觉你的心贴我如此的近
就这样永远在一起
无时无刻永远在一起
不想闭上眼睛
不想睡着
不想错过任何事情

TheTrueStoryOfChuTou

woken up by the sound of birds singing and mom shouting.. i looked at the mirror, i saw a pig.. i look very pale.. den i sat down on the bed,, wondering,, shud i do hw?? oohh i wanted to, but my head spin lik roller coaster... as usual, i open my pc, checking my mails, friendster and tomato's blog.. dunno chinese, so i dont understan... after awhile, saw her on9.. so weird,, usually dont on9 so early..
so,, anyway,, today i dont feel so well.. my brother sick alredi.. i had to help him out.. other than that,, i juz stare at the monitor for a day.. i din play games nor listen to songs... i juz stare at it...-.-i think i nid to go out and suck some air...

Phew!!

today,, i acidently bump into ben dan hse... her parents were there... i was like OMG!!! so scare but still i went in and called them... so its like i passed alredi... wahahaha.... so happy.... ^_^

ErrGeramnya

today, i was "planned" to stay at home by my mom.. dats fine for me,, coz i hav nothing to do... so, i m alone in the hse... in the afternoon, my friends called, i was too bored, so i decided to go for a spin(i dunno my whole family was not in the hse)... i nvr noticed that they were out... maybe becoz i never bothered.... since small, i was a kid who is carefully taken care by my mom... coz back then i got many sicknesses.... when i grew older, my health was better each day and until now i'd rarely go to the clinic or hospital... erm,, u can say that i become a normal person... but my mom nvr stop nagging me... i felt anoyyed and lucky to hav such mother... well,, she is too fan liao...yiii....
as i was talking bout my day alone in hse,,, my dad "reasonned" wit me... i felt very sad when he dint giv me a chance to explain... but i thought over, it was me who hold myself from explain to him... i dun wan him to know dat my mom cause all the misunderstan,,, coz he wud argue wit her,,, nvm ba,,, i can take it.... i got a good friend(vampiretomatoahbuibendan) to hear me....

FeelingWeird

i dunno wut to do... wut to think.... wut to say.... but feeling weird today... i had three meals and done nothing special but sat infront of the computer the whole day... life can be miserable but i felt miserable for myself... am i going into a world with no joy,, no laughter...? am i to worry bout others that i forgot bout who am i...? i dunno wut i want..
in the most of my schooling years, the future is my biggest problem... who am i in the future...? i dreamt of being a lawyer... in the end, i hadnt done what i wanted... well, let say when ppl starting to know they will regret, and they cant do anything bout it, dats the kind of feeling... my friends and family said i m selfish,, i m selfish of putting others in first place... actually, i dont think so, coz i juz wan others happy,in order for me to be happy too...
out of the sudden, in the middle of the mid-air, i tot of my love-line... am i too choosy?? or am i not dat lucky?? so many times and so many things happened in the inversely proportional way, dat both time and thing clashed... not the perfect timing, not the perfect doing... last time i used to liked someone called mei ting... i was like form 1 at dat time.... den when later i realised, i m not that attractive to girls, so i move on my life wit dissapointments... den i met wit yuen ching,, i started to admire her, but not there to get close... i m a whimp.... only by looking at her, i got the feeling of jay chow's song "jian dan ai"... when i played basketball, i used to be distracted by her and got scolding from seniors... after pmr, i got into the science class.. there, i got much closer to her becoz the class is small and only 15 of us in science class... slowly, bit by bit, we become close... we used to go to each others hse... chat... do hw...walk pasar malam... on the rememberence day, we went to watch shrek 2, at leisure... dats the first time we held hands... since then, she will hold my hands and cross my fingers when she felt cold... wat a special feeling...?? am i doing a confession..?? haha... but we dint get together becoz of my misunderstan.... ya,, all my bad,, haha...
therefore, i am now still single... lonely... outcast... can i marry to my pc??? hahaha.... now one can understan me better den a pc... i spent 80% of my time on it... since its the semester break, and i havent have a job yet, i decided to get out, see the world... now i hav a wild dream,, is to own a mz3 and my own hse... also to hav a job wit less then 8 hours and 5 days a week... who wouldnt wan?? hahaha.... some ppl may wan even more... eg, inherit lots of money from the richest guy on earth... haha... i wouldnt wan dat... coz lots of money means lots of enemy... eveyone in this worlds wans money, the more we have, the more envy others get.... so, i dont wan lots of money,, i juz wan money dat is enuff for foods,clothes,shelter,car and entertainments...
my aircond spoilt, i hav to use the other pc... now its okie,, but stil not cold... usually it gets very very cold but its juz cold... i thnk need to complain the guys who came repair it.... haihz... life is so miserable.... boring.... spoilt jo den fix,, fix jor den spoil...

PenangTrip

AnatomySecondTest

today, i think i'd done great in the test... i draw many small details of the structures... like in sclera.. i not draw the indication of the position but also describe the three layers of it....its becoz i m confused wit the question whether to draw the position or the layer structures... i wasted almost bout thirty minutes in drawing both of it.... i dunno whether can get full mark anot....
i really satisfy wit the test today... coz almost every question i know the answer... but still there's very little time plus the time i wasted in drawing make me really rush in the end....
time flies, i m still not realised that its alredi the end of the semester... i m gonna miss my ana and refraction teachers.... they both helped me alot in the studies.... especially mr yip,, he really inspired me at many times... thou i always sleep in his class but still he wakes me up into his nightmare boring class..... i really glad i got the chance to learn something from him.... i cannot remember much but i copied them alredi,,so,, i can always look back....
its funny when some ppl plan things at the beginning and finally ended up last minute rush, things getting more blended den time wasted....haihz,, its like dat ge la... i m not good planner myself... haha... sometimes its juz bout fun not to plan... 'the fun of not planning anything'
speaking of planning... i dont quite believe in fate or destiny... i may believe bout past and present.... everything, every dream is in our own hand... in order to achieve, we have to believe what will be will be.....

我的心情

默默在你的身后守侯的我，
多想看你不经意的笑容，
或许我的心里不懂，
我努力让你感动，
在你眼中有多么笨拙的我，
决不放弃追逐你的执著，
只要你能再多些回应我，
一个笑或点头全接受，
能不能再靠近一点点，
放心说出你所有感觉，
别再静静关在只有自己的世界，
我们太阳为你迎接，
能不能再靠近一点点，
能不能再勇敢一点点，
就算让我知道我永远只是单恋，
我也会藏著感谢笑着和你说再见。

PracticalExam

Today,, i m one of the patient for section 3(frame adjustment)... the most important thing in it is that the examiner is going to emphasize on whether the frame fits firmly on the patient or not... if the frame is too loose and out of alignment,, then the marks will be low...... I saw most of the candidates did very badly... the examiners said that candidates always make silly mistake like dont use the players for adjustment,,, forgot to do balancing(especially the sides and nose pad)....
in the most hard part is the repairing nylon string.... the nylon MUST NOT BE LOOSE.... and the lens shouldnt be damage when repair... otherwise,,, examiner will juz giv zero for that part....
i met wit a few skillful candidates... they done very well.... few minutes can finish the job and fits the frame comfortably on my face.... not like those who juz heat up the sides then put on me(dont they know its really hot).... anyway,, they r juz weak in the section,, cannot judge them in real form......hahaha

RushHour

as wat i post in multiply,, i went to genting and bukit tinggi at the same time.... i m tired and moody... this week is my study week.... my two test, anatomy and ophthalmic are going to be on next week....tomolo i m going to be a patient for the practical test... i m going to waste so many time and energy... dats why i m studying till late late lorh.... now, i look like panda jor... haihz..... my ex-tuition teacher ask me to yum cha... and i m lacked of time,,, but anyway,,, its been 2 to 3 years since i last saw him... so,, i think i shud go....
well,,, dat time when i took my optics test paper,,, i was surprised,,, i got 60% .... and i tot i fail.... haha... so lucky....
i must work hard.... must finish ana by sun and study ophthalmic on mon , tues and wed(till12.30pm coz test at 2pm).... gambateh to myself and my dear....

Mimi (1998-12thApril2007)

she's not only my pet but the best'est friend i had... everytime i had sad or happy moments,, she will sat beside me... i remember the first time i met her was in my school(ssm).. dat time i was standard4... she was chased by a group of naughty primary students... quickly i shouted and grabbed her body... her gentle and soft yellowhite fur made me wanted to keep her... i brought her home... along the way in the bus,, she crawled through my hands and licked my face... at that time,, she was juz the size of my palm....
once i came back home,,, my parents saw her... they asked whether am i going to keep her.... i said yes... the immediate impression on their faces were not really happy.... i knew keeping a dog in the house need time, energy and money.... at that time,, my family wasnt in good condition... thou they seemed like disagree to my suggestion but i insist in keeping her.... i promised them i will take care of her by my own.....
for weeks,, i fed her warm milk... she was very active... kept running around.... i even need to put wires along the gates,, so that she wont run away....
then years came by,,, she became more and more fierce to strangers... she bite anyone except me, bro and mom... no one like her,, but me,, i really enjoy touching her fur.... i even sang some of my own songs(no one ever hear before).... when i was unhappy,,, she always cheered me up by licking my leg or jumped up and down....she was my fire...i motivated myself and got many inspirations from her....
i cant believe she passed infront of me this moment... i cant accept this is the truth... i dunno whether i can live without her... before she passed,, i touched her her and said,,dont die... dont die... but..
i really cant write this anymore....sry

Blank

In the middle of optics test, i blank out... i knew every answers but i cant think... when i go back home,, i can answer all... why in the test i am blank...?? am i studying too hard??shud i relax more??
i dunno why... i only know i m going to fail tis time... my clean sheet record is going to the end... haihz haihz... i cant even imagine my true feeling now.... i studied so hard and cant do anything in the test....
the next day,, i decided to play as much as i can... after my vo,, i went to cc... den came back home,, continue playing online game... play play play.... i even invited tek yao and yi chuan over.... we had much fun... i made some of my special cocktails and tomyam maggee... HEHE..
the next day,,, everything normal... nothing special bout the mamak stall.... i had my breakfast in mamak... dats so boring...

OneNight2DayStay

fri,, went to yi chuan and tek yao place... i was thinking of hanging on there and study optics together... its a good thing but dont work out.... completely dont understand,, cant get into mind what dr lau explained to us.....trying my best to suck everything in the book...i got nothing....
i nvr give up... have to try harder... coz its not me to give up.... thou i realli wan to,, but cant cross myself....
so bout that night,, i went to cc and played maple until 4 in the morning.... its been awhile i can play online till so late....i felt i m still 15...
haha,, my friend will laugh if they hear this....
today i learn something from the movie Jerry Maguire... love doesnt mean telling the truth bout everything.... juz need to be happy.... its bout the connection.....between both sides.... not only the words,,, the look into the eye....

De-Ce-Sioooon

you might not know what is the title about.... "de" is the head of the problem.... its the right doing but when it comes to "ce" i knew its wrong..... dats why i come up wit "sioooon"....
today,, woke in the middle of the sound of alarm,, remembered a meeting with two of my friends.... i stepped down to the bathroom and rushed my way to fetch him..we went throu the wrong way but manage to reach midvalley on time... when we were there,,, we waited for a few moments for her.... we wonderred around and she suddenly appear infront of us... we bought our tickets for mr bean,, and perfume...dats right,,, we watched two movies on the same day....not unussual but nothing special... i had my breakfast and they had their lunch at mcD...
the drinks were coke and the burgers are big... too much fries for us... we ended up serious food jam in our stomach.....
i told myself,, i shudnt drink coke so early, not atleast i was up less than 4 hours.... then,, hav a fun time watching mr bean for the second time... same joke but its still funny.... i like the part when he danced.... its so mr loba loba... ya,, he captured all the moves.. beh tahan him....
when the movie ended,,, we walked around,, trying to find something to do... we had icecream... soon,, its time to move on to next round...
the show perfume started with the most disgusting way of giving birth... main character was given the perfect talent to smell the scent from all objects... altho, the movie was quite interesting but i find it boring....
we went home separately,, me and yi chuan by car and mae foong by KTM...

EndlessNight

The long lasting night seems to be longer and longer and longer... Listening to sound of the gentle breeze blowing through the window....Thinking of something...But what is that??? Thinking something which doesnt exist in our mind...I juz felt nothing is more important than being happy and seeing others happy....
Why being so stabborn on a particular what you call "secret" in the heart...?? If not mentioned,, how it's known?? If we tell secret,, it wont be a secret.... Everyone juz need some privacy.... not meant to hide but meant to protect....
Conservation of energy in our cells calls for us to rest.... An endless means a restless night.... Energy will be drained.. Hence, we will feel tired.... not a good thing....so, i m going to bed....

TheBrightStar

See within darkness within darkness,
Hear through space through space,
Feel beyond imagine beyond imagine,
Smell de' odor of odor..
It is the light from the blues that keeps the fire glowing....

What i do, i dont..
what i dont, i know..
what i know, i hold..
but atlast i held and let go....

Do i not sure but sure i dont,
not having back the smile,
it makes me feel drown,
when the scent that once there and now gone....

never will it be back,
as long as the wind is still blowing,
and moonlight dancing....

but none shall break,
coz it's always on our mind,
the memory,moment,cherished,feeling,
nvr ended, nvr gone, nvr stopped, nvr break,
only changes from the cover that are seen...

Friendship

there's so many plastics/fakers.... sometimes,,, u know when u can trust tis person,,, den another person tell u another kind of story den u start to mistake trust... dunno which is real la....but some are very obvious.... like when u r needed,, they will come smile at u... but when u r not needed,, u become an outcast....
at some point,, u meet wit those obstacle and some of them help out....some of them juz say,, i got things to do,,and so so..and u realli think they would help out but they dont....kinda disapointed....
what i hate is those ppl who ignore me... we can have fun together,, why cant we share problems...? thou we cant do anything,, we still can giv support ma....not dat i mean i realli hate them but dont agree on how they settle problem by ignoring friends....
in the end,, wan to add something bout boredom... if we open our heart we will not feel bored.... dat can be shone in the chinese character "闷" open the door and the heart wont get stucked.....

A Break Even Havent Start

Hey guess what,, its april fool,, and guess wut i get.. a break before start...I dont mind of all those confusion.... but why when i put a 100% feeling to someone,,, that someone dont giv a damn trust to me.... isit wrong to tell wut i think to the person i liked.... if i always tell the things she wan to hear,, i dont think it will work till end..
but since i lied to her once,,, its alredi my fault.... i apologized... now... i juz wan to be alone... single is who i m... now i think i prefer to stick to it.... -_-...