FeelingWeird

i dunno wut to do... wut to think.... wut to say.... but feeling weird today... i had three meals and done nothing special but sat infront of the computer the whole day... life can be miserable but i felt miserable for myself... am i going into a world with no joy,, no laughter...? am i to worry bout others that i forgot bout who am i...? i dunno wut i want..
in the most of my schooling years, the future is my biggest problem... who am i in the future...? i dreamt of being a lawyer... in the end, i hadnt done what i wanted... well, let say when ppl starting to know they will regret, and they cant do anything bout it, dats the kind of feeling... my friends and family said i m selfish,, i m selfish of putting others in first place... actually, i dont think so, coz i juz wan others happy,in order for me to be happy too...
out of the sudden, in the middle of the mid-air, i tot of my love-line... am i too choosy?? or am i not dat lucky?? so many times and so many things happened in the inversely proportional way, dat both time and thing clashed... not the perfect timing, not the perfect doing... last time i used to liked someone called mei ting... i was like form 1 at dat time.... den when later i realised, i m not that attractive to girls, so i move on my life wit dissapointments... den i met wit yuen ching,, i started to admire her, but not there to get close... i m a whimp.... only by looking at her, i got the feeling of jay chow's song "jian dan ai"... when i played basketball, i used to be distracted by her and got scolding from seniors... after pmr, i got into the science class.. there, i got much closer to her becoz the class is small and only 15 of us in science class... slowly, bit by bit, we become close... we used to go to each others hse... chat... do hw...walk pasar malam... on the rememberence day, we went to watch shrek 2, at leisure... dats the first time we held hands... since then, she will hold my hands and cross my fingers when she felt cold... wat a special feeling...?? am i doing a confession..?? haha... but we dint get together becoz of my misunderstan.... ya,, all my bad,, haha...
therefore, i am now still single... lonely... outcast... can i marry to my pc??? hahaha.... now one can understan me better den a pc... i spent 80% of my time on it... since its the semester break, and i havent have a job yet, i decided to get out, see the world... now i hav a wild dream,, is to own a mz3 and my own hse... also to hav a job wit less then 8 hours and 5 days a week... who wouldnt wan?? hahaha.... some ppl may wan even more... eg, inherit lots of money from the richest guy on earth... haha... i wouldnt wan dat... coz lots of money means lots of enemy... eveyone in this worlds wans money, the more we have, the more envy others get.... so, i dont wan lots of money,, i juz wan money dat is enuff for foods,clothes,shelter,car and entertainments...
my aircond spoilt, i hav to use the other pc... now its okie,, but stil not cold... usually it gets very very cold but its juz cold... i thnk need to complain the guys who came repair it.... haihz... life is so miserable.... boring.... spoilt jo den fix,, fix jor den spoil...