Saturday, December 29, 2007

Eye'sDark

panda eye... last night, i heard that my friend broke up becoz he had an ex-gf... well, some ppl might think she is stupid, some even think she is trying to find an excuse to dump my friend... erm,, i see him living his life well... doesnt seem sad... isit becoz he hide his tears or juz he dun care bout his last relationship... its correct that,, being happy is better den being sad,, but isit so easy to let go a relationship??? going through ppl blogs,, i found dat,, they usually encourage themselve to be strong.... i personally think that loving someone cannot be mixed wit reality... means ,,, as example,,, in my friend case,, he dont show any sadness after break up.... i mean,,, shud he go and drink?? or be cheerful?? the matter is not shud or shud not,,, its whether how deep is his feelings.... i sometimes think dat,, i shudnt cheer other ppl up when they break,, well atleast they wont be happy awhile den sad again,,, i rather they be sad for a period of time,, den come out as themself.... i also think,,, if sad,, its good to cry.... god make us cry-able,,, den juz cry la... wats wrong??? listen to the saddest songs and sing ur heart and cry as hard as you could.... living life in reality and in own dreamland both come to the end soon... as long as being a better ownself, whats wrong living in dreamland.... afterall,, life is unpredictable...being realistics doesnt always gain...
my dear de bro is going to australia next year.... he seem to be very care dear these few days.... isit becoz he finally realise next year is juz around corner?? i dunno... i juz think that he is like me... but juz luckier.... i m glad dat i m better den those unfortunate ones.... atleast i hav shelter and food... but i realli think that,, dear shud get more education since she is so good in studies... it doesnt matter son nor daughter... its the same....

Friday, December 28, 2007

Finding Job

Erm, i knew that studies are less important... today i went for interview, all they ask for is experience and looks... the first thing asked,,, how long i had work... ofcoz,, i work several years as part time but actually i forgot everything when i study... so everytime i work again in my holiday,,, my memory is lik refreshed... and so,, today when i was asked bout lens products, i am completed down to zero... i cant do my eyetest and i cant cut my lens.... cause frankly,, i only roughly remember... besides dat,, after the cruel exam,,, my look had become more down and tired... the guy interviewing me said i dont hav enuff eye contacts and my smile wasnt natural... ofcoz la,, i haven even bath and i was wearing my pm rm2 pants.... such a shame... i knew the outcome alredi... actually i realli wan to learn more about MOG, focus point and a-look... those are the three most successful optical shops in malaysia in case of overall performance... i realli nid to go in and work from one of them... pls giv me a better job... ^_^V

Friday, December 21, 2007

Longest Hour


in this minute, i found myself cry-able... reminded my late pet, Mimi... reminded dat, every year, i lost friends.... reminded dat the room i m living, is so cold... even as i cry so hard, i cant rewind and playback the moments before... even as i cry so hard, i cant change the fact that i hurt someone before... even as i cry so hard, i cant become the person i dreamt before...
you are my tears,
symbolizes my white and black,
behind the bubbly cloud,
of the blue sky,
you are my eyes,
let me see this world,
is just infront of me,
you are one part of me....
my heart is so brittle... so little... and maybe infront of everyone,, i smile... but behind,,, i m a human....

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Shoes



Why shoes??Why female so interested with shoes??Why??Can they ever throw away a JimmyChoo??? I mean CAN they worth so much to keep??? Buying is one thing,, and wearing is another...
People say, "A lady's shoes is de f'mine best friend" ....

KO-Numbers



erm... similar to ko1 de show, chung ji yi ban, ssm had a class like dat.... smoking, fighting, basketball.... legends of ssm... haihz... missing dat kinda of days... if now asked,,, regret of doing dat?? sure say no.... coz dat was the most memorable days.... seeing them fighting was kinda entertaining.... others school came to our school to fight.... after dat,,, when all kicked out of school,,, some go cp,,, some go sg long,,, some even work... their trace were gone... siannezzz.... no more entertainment....

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

how to kiss




Saturday, December 15, 2007

Motivation

some ppl say dat when we put something in mind, we can reach the impossible... we try to understand dat the progress is more important than outcome... and how much effort we put in too... the more hardworking we are,, we will be more lucky... true, as it also means every hardwork doesnt always pay off... we juz get luckier... and most importantly how it is changed thru times... factors affecting motivation??? what makes you wake up everyday?? what inspire you to take the steps you are taking now??? how to count the uncountable effort?? how to know the outcome of something before it happen??

Factor 1(Person or thing that make you wake)
i think that a person motivation is dependant on a person or thing... they change your mind.... they make you wake up everyday.... receiving the very first light patch from a distant object, innovate the very first cone of retina, travel thru the first visual pathway and triggering our midbrain... in every heart there is something dat push us... have you find it yet??

Factor 2(Inspiration)
try countin
g the days you lived,,, and try see what we came by all these years... ordinary person with ordinary life... isit enough to inspire you... i had seen countless 40 to 50 years of age of people travelled the globe... knowing that one day they will be bored of their life and want to go on to the next life as soon as possible... they really hav no regret in life???

Cause 1(Effort is uncountable)
we cant really COUNT how much effort we do unless there's a relative to compare... judging effort is just a waste of time... we dont count them,, we should feel blessed for while still being able to do all the stuff we are doing...

Cause 2(Hopes)
wat we hope for is vitally important... hope for the best before the worst come... if we dont try,, how do we know how much we can achieve...

Person who is bored of life is wasting time to hope for the best....

Friday, December 14, 2007

Bubbly - Colbie Caillat

V1: I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

C: It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

V2: The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under covers stayin safe (*) and warm
you give me feelins that I adore

C: It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

B: What am I gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmm

C: It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

V3: I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

C: It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever you go, I'll always know
Cause you make me smile here, just for a while

(*) Another version with DRY instead of SAFE
[Bubbly Lyrics on
http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]


Overheard this song on ppl's blog... sounded nice...

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Trashed

Many days came by and i juz realised i had been called "jong sik heng yao".... haihz.... ya realli... i jong sik heng yao.... i love my gf more den all.... isit that unreasonable??? i still hang out wit my friends... yum cha and all.... stuck wit exam sumore.... i dunno la... stp friendship.... i go out wit them so many times before.... been thru some good years.... and suddenly i m define by some back stab'er....
releasing my feeling now... haihz..... pressure.... exam in few days.... i felt the heat when i see the past years.... i dunno whether i can make it... i juz hope dat my prayers stopby my mind and guide me to the following graduation dinner... actually i felt sad dat bibi failed her test in practical... she cant make it in the next convo... nid to resit and wait for another year... not to say wait cause its not going to pause everything... she's not going to study anymore... so,, its not a waste of time....
well,, i also decided i dont wan to study after this course... i dun wan to be so educated.... but also hope i can hav a good future... seeing all my friends with dreams,,, i sincerely hoped dat they succeed in life, get what they most dreamt, and dont forget me after dat... haha...
recently i heard a song,, its call "xing bu liao qing" by "yang chung wei" of the "xing guang contest" from taiwan.... very nice.... when i miss bibi,, den i will turn on tis song,,, tears drop by bits and den everything felt better.... i finally know roughly wat is the extent of distance relationship....
life but a walking shadow.... wat does tis means? i think it as a kind of person who follow the steps of others.... am i right? dunno la.... juz saw tis from poems......

Thursday, December 6, 2007

这就是爱 [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦

Its been awhile i had my own masterpiece.... since 2005 i had the 1st best creation den to what i think the second best is in 2006.... and now i present 2007,,, best baby_production goes to............ *drum*.................... ta daaaa.......... :) and we have number 1...... enjoy....... hehe.......

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

HomeMadeSong...(TotallyRealisticVoice)

My voice is pure... I sang for the worst... my singing sucks... but for the sack of keeping my blog alive,, i nid to put something.... hope got ppl giv face and dont giv bad comment.... amen and namo-omi-tauhu.....

Friday, November 23, 2007

Heading On

towards the outside world.... i see myself as nothing without friends, family and my dear.... i m cant survive a minute without them.... i juz hope that there's a day when they realise they meant everything to me... finding the right path is juz so complicated... today realistic world... without a house and car... our life wont be complete... there are rich and poor people... and there are people fall in between them... trying to struggle to the way up higher... i desire, i hope, i wish everyone can live together as peace and harmony...
if today i write this,, there might be a time,, i cant afford my own electric bill,, and i stop writting my own blog... i feel my life is dropping to a trap... a trap where everyone pushing each other for their own survival... at last the loser will be in the street... and the winner claim the honour to stay in a good environment....
for my lack of intelligent,, i realli cant understan,,, why everyone cannot compromise?? if everything is worth a price,,, why still some people cant worth to buy?? i figure out there are many factors to consider..... we cant state an intelligent person can hav lots of money.... our environment, history build who we r now.... i am the kind of people who learn the past and dun wan to forget the sad things.... experience is what we gain.... if we throw away that most valuable thing of our life,, how could we can avoid making the same mistake???
through studies,,, qualifications,,, does any of these make us a better person??? does any of these help us find a job??? i most probably think that,,, if i am the boss,,, i will hire an experienced worker with lower salary,, rather than a high qualification student on a job... the state of risking the company progress is much higher wit high qualification student becoz,, everything in the company dont apply 100% on text book or lecture.... real job require skill and understanding,, yet a little of knowledge....
for an exceptional case which include physician and lawyers,,, both needed high in knowledge and experience..... legal practise is juz too much to learn before going out to the real world....
as i dunno why we as chinese dont satisfy our status in malaysia.... sure ya,,, there are special right for bumiputra but we still living in peace way.... how things happen and others will come distorted the whole matter till it goes in high social level.... people stay in one word.... citizen is one word... country is one word.... everyone giv a little bit,, and everyone get a little bit... doesnt dat juz be great??? why must there be selfish people who thoughts only come in one way??? think of both way before act is better,,, the point of view is one because it comes from our ownselve,,, if we gather all our friends opinion which comes in different direction,,, and maybe we get different thoughts....
different people,,, different personality,,, different actions,,, different way.... dats why old times goes lik " the world is fill with colours" which sounded so beautiful.... and as it is juz to warn us,,, better to be aware of everything happen around us..... there might be a time it will strike you....

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Paiseh

today i went to bibi relative wedding lo.... so many ppl i dunno.... pai seh nya..... shame shame lo..... bibi very bad..... bully me lo.... hmmmm...... blekkkkk........

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Rainy Days

Its been awhile since its not raining in the midnight,,, its so cold.... Still remember back den when we were trying to get to PD beach.... Atleast there's some place to shade the rain..... We had our most enjoyable times..... not the most but,,, still ok gua.... One thing for sure,,, they ate my homemade cake..... Not bad for an amature.... Well,, didnt vomit or stomachache or something un-cool? no,, right? ok.... good things come,, i juz wan them come even more....
Lots of things i learnt,,, and one of most important is trust.... For me,,, growing up with full of back stabs and lies,,,, trust juz didnt come so straight forward for me..... To gain that,,, i really tried my best,,, its like a second nature to me,,, a reflex everytime i sense something...... Now,,, i hope for the better,,, and the best yet to come.... Trust,,,i believe,,, in my word,,, i will bring down my knees one day,,, and beg to let me be ur husband,,, TanXueYan.....
But for now,,, i must earn lots and lots of money,,, so that till dat day,,, when u r tired,,, i can tell u,,, "hey,,, u can rest on my shoulder for the rest of ur life".....

Monday, November 5, 2007

Her Tears

the things inside that box realli will hurt me so much?? even i haven open the box,,, i alredi hurt... becoz i saw the box alredi.....
wang le ba.... wang le ta..... wang ji ta ba..... inside the box is not important..... i dun wan to know..... i dun wan to know.... i dun wan to know.... i wan to be happier.... i wan u to be at my side.... i wan u to be at my side forever.... i wan to hold ur hands.... i wan to touch ur face and kiss u.... nothing can set us apart.... not even the devil inside my mind....

Friday, November 2, 2007

New Song

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着 你的身影这么近我却抱不到 没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

Stress




I am going to burst.... I cant fail... I am not prepared... Studying like a dog...
Erm,,, relaxed today,,, din study... hopefully... i will pass....

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Reasonness

small thing => small sparks => small fire => big flame => i am cold and jealous baby... now i understan,,, man sometimes can hav period(reasonness anger)

只要为你活一天

只要为你活一天爱上了你爱上了你注定的是你我输的彻底爱上了你爱上了你早预言了分离决定了悲剧上天给了我多少时间全都给你我忘了我自己赶在生命里有限的时间里就让这一刻停在这里只要为你再活一天我愿意不管明天就算有更坏的消息只要为你再活一天我的心我的 心就会满意上天给了我多少时间全都给你我忘了我自己赶在生命里有限的时间里就让这一刻停在这里只要为你再活一天我愿意不管明天就算有更坏的消息只要为你再活一天我的心我的 心就会满意只要为你再活一天我愿意不管明天就算有更坏的消息只要为你再活一天我的心我的 心就会满意

Milestone

coming milestone makes worries thru chocolate flakes in my heart,
yet numerous junction awaits to turn,
and no mistake must arise,
as time waits no man.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Jealousy

Is your birthday day 9 of the month?

your Life

You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't knowhow to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality.Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkablebut sometimes you are too fast to follow.

Your Love

You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy overand over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck withchildren. You Will be Happy Always with u r Love Marraige. and she

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Is your birthday day 10 of the month?

Your Life

You are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high chance to be arenowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame and honor is near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You are good in implementing your imagination and share it withothers. You are always well dressed.

Your Love

You often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You always feel likeyou own the person you fall in love with and that often blows your relationship.

was wondering bout tis is real or not.... haihz... for honest... the jealous part is quite right.... i get jealous easily,, and i feel lik i own her... i realli scare tis will ruin our relationship.... haihz....
i dun wish it to be entirely true.... bout "first love lasts forever".... i read tis juz lik reading a comic book.... i din take it seriously,,, but wut my heart was thinking,, wasnt the thoughts played in my mind....
bout my immature,, i got the thoughts but my heart is lik a 3 years old.... i cant change wut my heart feels.... i cant stop being jealous.... and physically i am a big fat guy,,, 19 years old alredi.... quite dissapointed....
coming across tis,,, ealier, i heard dat some of dear's friend dun lik me being together wit her.... haihz,,, for tat,, i dunno wut to say.... bits of anger bursting out whilst bits of kindness redraw them back....
their words stand no position in between us.... there shudnt be any influence,,, and nor i shud prove to them anything..... ermm,,, as long as being together wit dear,, i feel happy,, warm,,,loved....and i love dear....

Friday, October 12, 2007

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Secret



Messy... Embarassing....

Wo Niu

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Suddenly

mom got stomachache.... brought her to the segar 24 clinic....

*Head-Bust*

listen to "爱在记忆中找你" reduced abit of my headache..... cant sleep...... i was on bed.... now i m not.... what shud i do....? can anyone tell me.....? what to do when cant sleep and headache.....? shud i call u....? haihzz.... i shudnt.... den wut shud i do.....? painful.....

Monday, October 1, 2007

Lavender







Lavender is the name for any of several aromatic shrubs, including English lavender, Lavandula angustifolia Mill. subsp. angustifolia, and French lavender, Lavandula dentata L. English lavender, formerly classified as Lavandula delphinensis Jord ex Billot, Lavandula officinalis Chaix, Lavandula spica L., and Lavandula vera D.C., is native to southern Europe and the Mediterranean area. Cultivated extensively for perfume and ornamental purposes in several European countries, the plant reaches a height of about one meter, has linear, lanceolate leaves covered with a velvety pubescence, and develops blue or purple flowers. French lavender, also known as fringed lavender, and formerly classified as Lavandula delphinensis Hort., is native to Spain. Grown as a popular ornamental, plants have long, linear, toothed, tomentose leaves that are a gray color and flowers that are a purplish color.
http://www.lavenderfleece.com/lavender.html

Lavender






SHORT HAIR!!!


T_T so embarasing.... i feel like an old prisoner....
after class today,,, went to a saloon.... get haircut.... she is a fat old malay lady.... i told her,,, nipis nipis,,, sedikit di tepi..... so in the blink of eye,,, my side burns were gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i felt like crying at dat time.................... y must they cut my hair so short,,, i din call her to lace my sides............... she think i m a primary school student???? haihzzzzzz..... no face to go class liao........

Hualala

Time pass quick, it’s another weekend, which also means my final exam is around the corner. Today was an amazing day. We watched ‘I now pronounce u Chuck and Larry’ and had the flying hours under the “orange” moon. We smell like fish biscuit after came home.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Friday, September 28, 2007

Car Crash

Had a car crash..... Very Farking Mang..... at the jusco parking....i looked at the rear mirror and sides... saw theres a space from my eyesight..... and hit the bricks..... haihz..... den theres goes my back light and bumper... mum kept talking and i din listen well.... juz noe she talked bout it.... haihzzzzzz

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Friday, September 21, 2007

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Its 2.45

Its 2.45.... raining.... sat here more den 12 hours.... and i m still sitting here.... my mood is lik opening a candy door wit a fish.... Felt the table shaking... not sure whether its an earthquake or something else....

Zen@SunwayPiramid





CHILDHOOD SONG

Sang badly... Juz wan to keep it as a memory...

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Hello~~

Just wan to let everyone who read my blog.... (not more den my 10 fingers) dat my blog had added a mp3 column.... if ya connection is slow,,, pls off it,,, coz its realli not smooth.... tq

unpleasant morning

felt supper uncomfortable.... hardly slept..... get well pls....

Listen

"walk"through the narrow alley.... quickly i open the men's room,,, accidently hit a guy coming out.... very funny.... coz i nvr did dat but noticed it very long time ago.... the toilet shouldnt hav an entry door,, coz we dunno when will there be guy inside infront of the door....
Juz that sushi king has tis promotion,, bi went to buy sushi and got cheated.... the promotion wasnt for take away.... and they didnt put on the terms and condition.... haihz....
Watched neraka19.... it is a boring movie.... i understan it but its not logic... ah kiew met the "ghost" gou... juz for a few minutes.... the story didnt tell how ah kiew fall inlove wit gou.... but ah kiew is willing to suicide wit gou....-.-? and ah kiew said "the game is logic".....
Listened to a familiar voice that almost surprised me.... she was a long lost net friend,,, suddenly pop out and said hi..... she told me that she had tons of assignment unfinished.... the deadline is juz next door.... kinda now how she felt,, coz i've been through unfinished work yet i still managed it well.... yaya,, i m quite sorry for her la but it's quite strange,,, why in the sudden she msn me?! isit wan me to do assignment for her??
Noticed,, i became a listener.... problems kept coming to my ears..... dont know how to help.... its not lik they r less smarter den i m.... but anyway,,, people will feel light when their bags are put a side....

Saturday, September 8, 2007

A Simple But Sweet Day

went to midvalley to watch avan almighty.... before dat,,, i planned it long alredi,,, juz wanted to tell on the day.... haha..... everything went well...... go for tako...... watch movie..... had dinner wit bi's family.... tis was the second dinner i ate wit them... they were very warm..... and lik to joke.... bi told me dat her dad dont lik to joke... but actually he's a funny man.... and friendly... erm,,,, he is a very good father and husband.... if he is my dad den good lo.... can got so many family trip.... can eat together as family.... can watch tv together.... can talk.... haihz..... say until also wan to cry tim....
later night dat time,,, i went to yum cha wit how yee, hong yeh and kent lim at tan gille.... saw mei sim and greg.... mei sim got new friend,,, busy accompany them..... greg le,,, came up,,, juz like commersial,,, advertise himself den went to fetch his friends home... raymond le.... nothing to say to him,,,, wont pick up the phone ge.....
zzzZZZ its alredi 4.30am liao.... bed time.....

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

MOODLEEEEEESSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, September 3, 2007

Happenings

so dat i realised that i am very happy dat our country reach 50 year.... another thing dat i was interested wit is the history subject....
the week before,,, i had my lan subject class.... ms ang told us in class dat not onli chinese hate the japanese during its domination in malay land,,, others like indians and malays too..... she told me bout the death train.... how lucky was those survivors..... they hav to eat porridge or sometimes nothing in a day..... sometimes,,, they will hav a salted fish...... they hung the fish,,, and onli can smell it,,, so dat they can hav the taste of salt while eating the porridge..... most of them were indians.....
the chinese as we were told in the books.... but the malays.... in our text books,,, is there any saying bout how they threat them...... according to miss ang,,, i realli dunno bout dat,,,, she claimed dat,,, when the malays were praying in the mosque,,, the japanese didnt show repects to them.... as a normal pray,,, malays pray to the direction of Allah.... but the japanese ordered them to pray to the east as their king and country of japan is at east......
and for another example,,, japanese use ppl to do experiment.... chemical weapon was tested on innocent humans.... they inject something in the humans and it flows to the brain.... and its lik ant in the brain,,, slowly bitting those cells and nerves..... it was to painful to bare dat the person being tested knocked his head to the wall till dead.... the old man telling tis story was one of the test..... he heard screams.... noices of ppl breaking their heads up..... it was nightmare..... but anyway,,, one day when brittish enterred to malay land,,, the japaneses were forced to go..... the onli survivor ran away and chopped his leg off.....
it was quite interesting that,,,, those are their stories,,, juz words,,, but until now,,, theres not much facts to support the happenings..... juz lik the da vinci code.... in the story,,, jesus had a wife named magdalene.... and had a child.... the bloodline was in the royal family..... so,,, the complicity of it,, was juz signs and words from ppl.... arguments happened.....

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

爱的勇气 - 赖雅妍

雨后晴朗天气
如此神奇那像是一种命中注定
许愿一个奇迹
在未来有幸福的画笔
我的骄傲表情
都是因为
你疼爱我像超级巨星
从现在给了爱快乐气息
一种想爱声音
那是不顾一切的决定
而你给我的不只是鼓励
爱已渐渐占据
我的心
呼吸爱的勇气
不管呼啸的雨
让爱不由自主
奔向你
带着自信回应
抛掉犹豫和你零距离
呼吸爱的氧气
有种爱的肯定
都是因为有你
我踮起脚尖亲吻了你
快握紧我的手
爱情爱情
降临两颗心
我的坚定语气
都是遇上
你改变我的所有心情
从现在给了爱纯真旋律
呼吸爱的勇气
不管呼啸的雨
让爱不由自主
奔向你
带着自信回应
抛掉犹豫和你零距离
呼吸爱的氧气
有种爱的肯定
都是因为有你
我踮起脚尖亲吻了你
快握紧我的手
爱情爱情
甜蜜爱情爱情
降临两颗心

爱 转角 - 罗志祥

我伪装着
不露痕迹的想在你身边
静静的陪着看着天边
骑着单车
往前行进着
某个路口爱在等着
你往前走
不回头看了记忆的笑脸
缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得
让你孤单单的
我爱你的心牵挂着
心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎么说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美
歌词提供再兴
☆爱转角遇到了51lrco~-~o
心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎么说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美
爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
将寂寞孤单作废让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美
为什麽你轻易俘虏我的心
我却难以将你的目光拉近

Friday, August 24, 2007

How much i wish



How i wish i can go back to your footprint...


How i wish i could play the notes of secret....


How i wish i can understand your notes....


How i wish they dont judge me by my apearance and age.....


How i wish i could cry but my tears had dried....


No matter how hard i wish....


Yet...


When we kissed,


i felt everything around us turned hazzy,


the only thing i focus is you and me,


and i know we can kiss for the rest of our life,


even the sun never rise, the moment turned ice.....

De Poem I Count My Night

Never knew what I never knew,
ever new what is ever new?
Reached my time I felt,
Nothing beside that might inhale,
so that I wish I know what I knew,
But it’s still new what is never known.

I came across mountain path,
I seek all that’s left, which I have had,
My scent came true, where I had met,
It lies beside me outside the window made,
It stands on my shadow where I hate.

How come desert sand so yellow,
But yet mine so blue,
How come sun shine so bright,
But yet the moon lies in my night,
Nevertheless, shall it wind pass wee height.

Upon all, might had buried under,
If it’s not revealed, shall it reveal summer or spring,
Neither autumn nor winter spree can keep ice forever,
As it’s undeniable, unforgettable but not unforgivable,
Till there’s no man can see, no breathe can take.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Remembrance Day

Remembrance Day. The clock strikes the eleventh hour. This symbolic day has held a deeper meaning for me ever since last year. One of a more personal nature. Actually, I can hardly fathom that it’s been a year already. After what happened, I just seemed to have lost track of time. It almost felt like it had just happened yesterday.

I think back to the times when we would be at the docks, just listening to the waves of the sea as we sat in stillness. Such a serene silence that hovered over us, and yet, we knew what the other person was thinking about. But this place hasn’t been the same ever since all those fond memories were met with a piercing pain last year on this very day. You wanted us to take a break. As for how permanent the break was going to be, you weren’t sure. You just felt that things were not what you expected them to be and being on our own again was the best solution. I didn’t know what to say. You embraced me one last time and said good-bye. Then you turned around and walked off. I stood there, feeling a sense of abandonment.

Tonight, I went back to the docks again. I haven’t been back for a year now. As I thought quietly to myself, I could hear the waves whispering in the background. This is the place where I’d lost you. For some reason, those feelings of hurt and sadness resurfaced. I guess I’ve been keeping these feelings hidden for too long though I’m not sure how I’ve managed to do that. As I stood there, I thought I sensed a lingering fragrance of your hair. But it scattered so quickly that perhaps I was just reminiscing about the past too much.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. *deep breath* A vision of you leaving that day drifted to mind. I opened my eyes and gazed at the waters dancing together in rhythm under the moonlight. I tried to search for traces of you, but not even your silhouette was in sight. It was then that a quote I read recently came to mind…

“If breaking up can be said to be the starting point of pain, then before the final destination point, I’m willing to love once again.”

That just really spoke to me ‘cause that was exactly how I felt. I want to love once again. I know that I didn’t have the courage to tell you how much I loved you and express all that was on my heart. Believe me, I wanted to. I guess I just thought that actions would speak louder than words. But I was wrong. All girls need to hear those three words from their boyfriend at some point. It’s an affirmation for them. I guess I just didn’t catch on soon enough. *sigh* After losing you, I knew that we wouldn’t be back together again. So deep inside, I’ve been yearning for another relationship. I still believe that there is someone for me out there. Someone that God has handpicked for me. But in the meantime, I need to forget about you first.

I sat down and just stared off into space. The fact that it’s been a year already came to mind again. Even the waves were beckoning me and chanting in a hushed chorus that it was time for me to move on. But you have left deep tracks in my heart and I couldn’t help but think of your tender face once more. Before I forget about you, I wanna cherish our happiest memories together in the corner of my heart. A year ago, at this very place, tears were falling in my heart and my vision was blurred by overwhelming emotions. A year later, at this place again, I believe I have gained some sort of closure as my wound is being healed.

As thoughts of knowing that someday, someone will take your place beside me and that thoughts of you won’t surround me anymore, I felt as if a door in my heart has been unlocked, and broke into a smile. *smile* I know I’m in Good Hands. A sense of peace settled in. Finally, I can put this behind me.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Malaysian Studies

wahaha... i started to enjoy the class.... i love the assignments..... got to write about OIC.... this really brings me back to age 15 when i did all the pmr assignment.... back then,, i was doing kerja kursus and was instructed to "write" in BM on A4 paper.... papers without line.... great..... in addition to that,,, i have to translate all the info from english to bm..... i admit,, i never forget those bitter days..... wasted almost a bin of papers juz becoz of a small mistake.... imagine when juz a slight mistake when writting or spacing or alignment,,, the whole kerja kursus is a rubbish.....not only that,,, i have to search for almost the whole chapter of organizations which involve malaysia international relation.... theres commenwealth la,, ASEAN la,,, OIC,,, much much more..... how come nowadays kids are so lucky,,, everything also type type type,, copy paste,, kau tim alredi...... hate it..... lack of honesty,,, ppl do lik hell,,, and they juz steal other ppl works..... hmmmm.....
i dont quite care bout it now,,, coz i onli wan my group work be perfect.... so,, i decided to do it by myself.... or juz to help them out,,, since they are so "lack of time"..... dont wan them to ruin my work neither....
busy day,,, but quite happy.... do something i enjoy..... its really a complete day compare to sitting infront of tv doing nothing.....
theres gonna be a presentation,,, so exited,,,, hehe,,,,, my time to show off my presenting skill.... wahahaha..... lc-nya saya.... *cough cough* paiseh,,, i wasnt lik tis.... but i am.... hahahaha......
aiyoyo.... late liao.... bibi ask me to sleep early.... up up and away.... *pheeeeeewwww*

Monday, August 13, 2007

99th Day







we went so many places.... ate many things.... 1st we went to ts for gai gai.... stop by and had starbucks coffee.... den we went to midvalley to hav ikan bakar for dinner..... den went to see star star near my house but theres no star..... so we went to langat hill, olive and bread to hav some drinks.... the view there is extremely nice and its realli cool.... for ppl who are reading this,,,, pls dont go there,,, coz if many people go,, den its hard for me to find parking.... wahahaha.....

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Happy Birthday To Myself


10/8/2007 was quite a day.... hav a very good time wit yan yan... got the chance to eat yan's dad cooking again,,, curry laksa.... hehehe...... den we went to watch rush hour....... the show was very funny..... its worth to watch....... after that we went to eat sushi king...... tried the season food, unagi, not bad.... at first we had to plan of where to go but, suddenly pop out in my head, is to watch secret at genting.... den so we went up to genting again..... watch secret..... it was suppose out in malaysia at 16th august but its alredi out the international screen at 10th,, so we can watch it in genting..... and i was quite happy.... cause its really worth to watch.... ^^

ps:thx yan yan for being wit me....

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

07/08/07

the morning air was too fresh that woke me up early..... time was around 7.... looked out through my square window with bars which is typical for most of 30-40 years old houses.... saw the birds flew and heard them sang.... everything was in slow motion....
crawled downstair as i was quite sleepy.... dragged myself to the bathroom and get myself ready for the exam which was going to start later at sharp 11.... so, i sat on and done my revision.... read all those definitions that were expected to come out and they did... then, i caught my eye at the cloak, it was already 10.... i walked out and stood at the alley at the side of of my house...the heat rose... bits of drop of sweat came out from my body to keep my body cool... meanwhile, i had this chance to read my notes once more... my neighbour was out collecting her clothes and she saw me as i noticed by the sound of a small cracking old iron door...
in a moment later, yan yan had arived to pick me up... coincidently, my mom was juz back from her morning walk at the market just few metres away.... she saw me, and asked, "why on earth are you standing under the hot sun?"
her voice was so irritating that i cant stand to listen, which in fact, i've been hearing it for the pass 19 years... i neglected her question and went straight into the car....
in the exam, i was quite careless.... i dropped my stationaries for twice.... a really kind lady sat infront of my seat, picked them up for me.... was very appreciated.... my concentration was in straight line.... although i knew i'd made some mistakes, i never regret my hard work...it paid off...
after we'd attended practical, we went to kopitiam.... was raining... it was already raining when we walked to the way to the park... heart was beaten as yan yan was shivering cold....








this was the first time i'd ate yan's dad bah kut teh,, i am so hang fuk,, wahahaha,,, erm... and also the first time i'd walked alamanda, ate at waffle stop....