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Many days came by and i juz realised i had been called "jong sik heng yao".... haihz.... ya realli... i jong sik heng yao.... i love my gf more den all.... isit that unreasonable??? i still hang out wit my friends... yum cha and all.... stuck wit exam sumore.... i dunno la... stp friendship.... i go out wit them so many times before.... been thru some good years.... and suddenly i m define by some back stab'er....
releasing my feeling now... haihz..... pressure.... exam in few days.... i felt the heat when i see the past years.... i dunno whether i can make it... i juz hope dat my prayers stopby my mind and guide me to the following graduation dinner... actually i felt sad dat bibi failed her test in practical... she cant make it in the next convo... nid to resit and wait for another year... not to say wait cause its not going to pause everything... she's not going to study anymore... so,, its not a waste of time....
well,, i also decided i dont wan to study after this course... i dun wan to be so educated.... but also hope i can hav a good future... seeing all my friends with dreams,,, i sincerely hoped dat they succeed in life, get what they most dreamt, and dont forget me after dat... haha...
recently i heard a song,, its call "xing bu liao qing" by "yang chung wei" of the "xing guang contest" from taiwan.... very nice.... when i miss bibi,, den i will turn on tis song,,, tears drop by bits and den everything felt better.... i finally know roughly wat is the extent of distance relationship....
life but a walking shadow.... wat does tis means? i think it as a kind of person who follow the steps of others.... am i right? dunno la.... juz saw tis from poems......